This time next week I will be getting ready for my first proper day back after maternity leave. A whole new job role, a whole new place of work with new colleagues, new procedures, new customers.
I am quite apprehensive about going back to work. I haven’t been directly customer facing in over 4 years and going back to this old job role will be so different for me. I’m not used to customers, not used to dealing with them myself – I used to get someone else to deal with them!
Going back after having my second child, knowing that I won’t be having any more and won’t have any more maternity leave in the future is daunting – THIS is the future. Going back now is the way things will be the foreseeable future. I can’t say I’m looking forward to it – Our whole family dynamic will change just when I have started to feel like we know where we are, we’re used to Hubby’s shifts we have our little routine, of sorts.
One more week. One more week of maternity leave, one more week completely with the babies and then I’ll have three days at work, four at home. The babies will have four days with me, one with Daddy and the other two will be split between Daddy and Nanny depending on Daddy’s hours at work. It’s already giving me a headache. I already don’t know whether I’m coming or going. I’m trying to not get stressed about it before it’s even here. I’m trying to think of it as ‘only’ work and trying to focus on the times we will have as a family in between my days at work and Hubby’s shifts. They’ll be few and far between but I’ll definitely be trying to make the most of them!